Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Volunteer Work

I made mention on my post entitled "Greetings" that an opportunity to get involved in some volunteer work had appeared on the horizon. Volunteer work has always been important to me for reasons I'll get into some other time. Among them have been fundraisers for churches, a VFW fundraiser back home in Pennsville, New Jersey, community events in New Orleans, Richmond, and Memphis, and the occasional last minute, "Hey Mike, if you're not doing anything...." gig.

Honestly, I don't mind the latter. I've found some of those to be the most rewarding.

For the record, my brother's needs come before all others. I can not commit to this next project until my services are no longer needed by him and his family.

Oh, yeah.........the next project? What has me this stoked? You can find it right here.

Why is this such a good fit for me? Well, for starters it is the brainchild of my best friend, Dr. Patrick Lloyd. Our friendship goes back to grade school. He is for all intents and purposes the sixth Walker boy. We have spent many years cooking in competitions, cooking for fundraisers, cooking for our families, and heck, just cooking for the sake of creativity. The soup kitchen also fills a need back home. Things are tough all over, but I've never seen things this bad back home.

Are we going to solve all the ills feeding people two days a week? No. Can we supplement the social services while giving our parishioners a chance to get involved in community service? Absolutely. One thing about hard times, there is someone out there tonight that has it much worse off than you or I do. I've found personally by engaging in community service I become much more grateful for what I have and where I am in life.

At this point in time I'm not ready to leave Memphis and return home full time. There are many things that keep me here. I love where I live, I love my friends, and I've lived here longer than anywhere else in my life. Memphis is home. However Pennsville is "family". These are people I've known just about all my life. I have ties to the community and ties to the church. My late parents and brother's funeral Masses were held there. My best friend and his wife were married there. I wasn't the best Catholic growing up but I'm trying to do better.

Pat and I always used to kid around that when we retired we'd open our own restaurant.

We had no clue that God was going to take us up on the offer.

Air Traffic Mike

Monday, January 26, 2009

"Your Life's Going To Be So Different....."

That's what a coworker said to me last night during a break. I really hadn't given it that much thought seeing as I'm more distracted by Bruce's illness. I've been giving it some thought this morning.

I haven't been unemployed since I was 9. I started raking leaves, shovelling driveways, and picking up little odd jobs from the neighbors. My older brother had the afternoon Wilmington News Journal paper route. There was an old retired guy who delivered stacks to the various delivery boys and businesses. At the ripe old age of 10 I talked the motor route newspaper guy into letting me help him deliver the Saturday afternoon stacks to the different stores in town. By 12 (the minimum age for delivery boys) I got the local morning paper route. Soon after, I took over my brothers afternoon route. Not being one to idle time away I soon started cutting grass and trimming for some of the neighbors. That paid considerably more than delivering newspapers and the hours were better.

I left my career in media behind me. I had triumphantly returned to the lawn care biz. Not much I can say about it. I was just a kid, cutting five lawns, raking leaves, and trimming. I still shovelled snow during the Winter months. One thing I did learn during this time was that I wanted a nice inside job when I grew up.

That would last until I turned 16. At 16, in New Jersey, you were old enough to work real jobs. My brother Bruce had started working at a restaurant as a busboy and dishwasher. Dishwashers made minimum wage. In the day that was a whopping $2.35 an hour. Bussing tables paid only $1.12 per hour, but we made a percentage of the waitresses tips. Still, it was more lucrative than the "yard boy" circuit, so off to the food service trade I went. They couldn't give me enough hours. I was working anywhere from 25 to 40 hours a week during the school year and 40 hours a week during the Summer. This isn't to say all I ever did was work. I worked mostly at night so I had my days available for the usual swimming, fishing/crabbing, and general kid stuff during the days. I was saving money for college and was highly motivated.

In a decision between aviation and culinary arts that came down to nearly the last minute, I began my collegiate career. My first love was aviation, but cooking was a really close second. I decided that air traffic control was my calling. I was going to enlist in the United States Air Force at one point but there was one small problem. Dad wanted me to go to college. I had both the aptitude and the grades. Kevin and Bruce were by this time already in the Navy. My guidance counsellor found this small college in New Hampshire that fit the bill. Daniel Webster College had a co-op program with the Boston Air Route Traffic Control Center. I had a goal and now I had a plan to get there.

My first semester as a college student. I had saved enough money to pay for the year. I didn't want to screw it up. For the first time in years the only work I concentrated on was my school work. It was all new but I thrived on it. Christmas break came. My first report card arrived in the mail on, or near 23 December. I ran to the kitchen where Dad was making a pot of his "family famous" chili. He grabbed a couple of beers from the fridge and we sat down at the kitchen table. I slowly opened the envelope. He looked at me and said, "Well?" I had four A's and one B+. It would be one of the last good memories we'd share. He'd live for just a few more weeks.

I thought I was working a lot of hours before. I came home from college determined to make it on my own without help from Mom. She still had my younger brothers in the house and Gary was most certainly going to college after high school.

My old boss Gus was thrilled to have me come back to work for him. He put me on 40 hours, gave me a raise, and put me at the top of the list to work any of the catering jobs in the banquet halls attached to the restaurant. Soon I noticed an ad in the newspaper. A local liquor store had an opening for a stock boy/delivery boy with negotiable hours. The owners liked what they saw in me and I got the job. I explained my situation. The other stock boy was a college student too. We were sort of in the same boat so we agreed to work out a schedule that would meet both our employer's and our needs. My 80+ hour work weeks commenced in full. That's what my Summer's would look like for the next four years.

My days of leisure were over in college as well. I took a position as an RA on campus. This was beneficial. My room and board was my compensation. This took a couple thousand dollars off my bill and it gave me time to study. I took a maintenance job at the local Children's Museum. That was good for about 25 hours a week. I did third shift data entry. The pay was good, but that shift took a terrible toll on both me and my grades. I was getting migraines and my grades dipped down to all B's. Ronald Reagan had arrived at the White House. He cut the Federal budget way down. The co-op program got axed the year my class was to compete for the 12 slots. One year later he made up for it by firing most of the Air Traffic Controllers who had participated in an illegal strike. The dream that had seemingly slipped away had come back into play full force. I stayed in school and finished my four year degree. There was no way the PATCO controllers would get rehired and no way the FAA was going to replace the 11,000+ openings in two years.

With everything considered, I averaged 80+ hour work weeks for four years straight. Even after I graduated and was waiting to get picked up by the FAA I maintained that schedule.

The last 25 years have been equally as wearisome. I've worked in three 24 hour facilities. We never close. We're there every day of the year. It has been all shift work, save the time from 2003 until 2005 where I was medically disquallified. I'll tell you about that some other time. Because of the way our schedules are run, there have been many times I've had only 8 hours of rest between shifts. Two nights, two days, followed by a midnight shift has been the norm. It ruins your Circadian rhythm. Many of us air traffic controllers have sleep disorders in varying degrees of severity. I have horrible sleep patterns. Mind you, I'm not whining here. These are plain and simple facts. I knew I'd have to endure them for some time.

But not for long.

My coworker was right. Starting 1 March, for the first time since 1970, all 24 hours of the day belong to me.

My life's going to be VERY different.

Air Traffic Mike

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Greetings

First off let me get something straight. The names "Memphis Mike", "Air Traffic Mike", and the term "ATM" are hereby, irrevocably declared all to be one and the same.

I'll be retiring from my career at the FAA effective 28 Feb. 2009, hence the "Memphis Mike" title. While it is new to those who know me here in the core of our lovely downtown neighborhood, there are others who know me by the title.

Retiring. It still sounds so odd to say it about myself. Retirees are supposed to be old, wrinkly people who look forward to reruns of "Matlock" and their next bowel movement. Am I supposed to trade in my Levi's and NB sneakers for polyester slacks, dark socks, and sandals? Someday I may evolve into that but not at the ripe old age of 48.

Plans? Sure I have plans. I want to travel across the U.S. via the Amtrak system. I want to spend a Summer back in Long Point, Maryland visiting family and friends, fishing, kayaking, and documenting the days. I want to drive up the Pacific coast staying in the small towns that dot the shore. There is a volunteer project starting up back in the small New Jersey town I grew up in I'd like to give some time to.

Unfortunately, life is what's going on around us while we're planning.

My older brother is fighting for his life. He's been fighting cancer for almost five years. It started as colon cancer. The tumor was removed. It came back again. This time they took his colon out and conducted chemotherapy. He got a clean bill of health. During a routine follow up some months later the doctors found his cancer had metastasized on his lungs. More months of chemotherapy. Tumors diasappear. Another clean bill of health. During a routine follow up they discover the cancer has returned yet again. As of this posting he's getting ready to start a different chemotherapy. It is hard not to be there in Virginia. I did the only thing I could do given his circumstances.

I can always make more money, I just can't make any more time. Life has taught our family this lesson all too well. Both of our parents died before age 60. Dad passed away in 1980 of an abdominal aneurysm. Mom passed in 1993 of metastatic thyroid cancer. Our beloved brother Gary died in a July, 1987 car acident at age 24. Losing Dad and Mom was hard enough. Losing Gary at age 24 was horrifying. It is the same horror I feel for my older brother Bruce. He's only 49.

Made my decision to retire a pretty easy one.

It isn't all doom and gloom for him right now. He says he still feels pretty good. He can get around, has no pain, and his sense of humor is where it has always been. His daughter is getting married in Las Vegas in March giving me and my brothers the opportunity to do a Vegas trip. Another "Walker Boys" block checked.

After the trip I'll return here, close up the condo, and go spend some time with him. Our careers have taken him, Kevin (our oldest brother) and I (number three here) far and away from each other most of our adult lives. We have one more brother, John, but John's choices have left us no option but to consider him personna non gratis. My plan is to spend time with family to start. We've missed many years together. I'm in the position to change that.

More to follow and remember, you could have spent this time masturbating.